Throughout my journey with Lyme Disease, I have often wondered why me? There are millions of people in this world, how and why did I get chosen to go through this? I have at times wondered what my life would be like if I didn’t have to deal with this at all. When I allow myself to go down that path, it’s easy to feel sorry for myself and become resentful of the hand I’ve been dealt.
After spending some time down “Why Me Blvd”, I come to my senses and hear a small whisper, “why not you? “If anyone can handle this, it’s you, Windy”. I’m reminded of that verse in the Bible that says, “I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength”. You see, my faith tells me that God will never give me more than what He has equipped me to handle. While it might be hard, and at times, really sucks (just being honest), I have what it takes to get to the other side. You see on the other side of this “test” is a “testimony” and I hold firm to that thought when I’m having a bad day. I choose to believe that God is using me to help others and that brings me so much joy and comfort. It’s not about me, it’s about Him! I could very easily become angry at God and some might feel I have every right to, however, my mother used to tell me that “to whom much is given, much is expected”. I realize that in spite of my illness, I am truly blessed and have a lot to offer. I plan to do all the good I can for as many people as I can. If I can help at least one person who is struggling with illness (or in any other way) then I’ve done my job.
I may never really know why I am dealing with Lyme and that’s ok with me. I’m a firm believer that everything happens for a reason and as long as I don’t allow myself to wallow in self-pity and stay focused on the bigger picture, God will see me through.